all i can do is shake my head

so like, haruki has really been pissing me off lately. he pretty much treats me like a retard, and now it is leaking over to other people. this pisses me off more and then i start making mistakes that make them think more retard treatment is warranted. hirokawa is almost never talking to me directly anymore, so i am not picking up the words he uses. it's a mess. and with only a week until the play opens (i said two yesterday'but was actually thinking of the last performance), i get pissed at myself when i make a mistake.